My dear dear Tracey,

I don’t really know where to start… I’m speechless… And it’s very difficult to make me speechless…

Let me try again,

My angel tracey,

You were such a beautiful soul with the biggest heart. I just can’t believe that you are no longer with us. It feels like I lost a very big part of myself. You were such an important person in my journey. Because of you I learned so many things about myself and others. Because of you I started loving myself again. You thought me to accept myself. You were my mom on the other side of the world. Now I’m laying here in my bed regretting that we lost contact when I moved back to Belgium. Oh my dear tracey, what happend?

I’ve read through our many messages just now and I’m just so grateful that I knew you. Your amazing beautiful soul, always helping others, a listening ear, the kindest person, I can just keep going.

We have shared our biggest weaknesses and strengths with each other. You have played one of the most important roles in my Recovery. You loved me as a daughter, I loved you as a mom. The memories we made are engraved in my soul. Your beautiful words, i will never forget. Our bond was just so special! You said A and I knew the alfabet. You would give me so much love when I felt down. You would wipe my tears of my face and tell me everything would be okay. Now I’m in so much pain but I know you are sending me love from heaven. I know you are free now. I know you are watching me and telling me not to cry. I know you are holding me. Ooh Trace… I just love you so much and I will just miss you like crazy! I don’t want to say goodbye to my angel. You will always be in my heart.

Thank you for making me smile again, thank you for being there for me, thank you for being my mom when I needed one, thank you for your kinds words, thank you for your advice, thank you for your joy, thank you for your optimistic spirit, thank you for being you, thank you for everything my lovely Tracey. You will never be forgotten! 🤍

Sleep tight my angel, be free and shine like the brightest star you always were! 🌟

I LOVE YOU 🤍

Love, Marie

PS: don’t worry my sweetheart, I will rise again!