789 Days
Hello everyone, I know it has been a while since I've written a blog... And It's my birthday tomorrow, yaaay!! And I feel like I want to write something on my last day as a 23 year old hehe
The past year has been with ups and downs, change of plans, career, Covid, ... But I did learn a lot to be honest. I learned how to be alone and be okay with it, I learned to accept myself, I proved to myself that I can stay sober in Belgium, I learned a deeper meaning of happiness, love, friendship, family,... And I feel grateful for it! I need to be honest with myself and not pretend that everything is fine... I actually had a difficult time last month but I have good news now...
Soooo I've been in Cape Town for the past week and I must say that I feel blessed! I feel me again, I feel calm and serene. I would like to continue my journey here in Cape Town, I want to learn, work, experience, laugh, exercise and so much more!
I have decided to stay here for a longer time actually... Cause when I look back to the last 9 months I've been procrastinating a lot of things and I have to change my behavior around that... I want to plug into the program again, feel spiritual connected, continue my RA course, help people, focus on me and see where my Higher Power takes me.
There are a few things I need to sort out before I come back but I do have faith that everything will work out how it's supposed to.
I feel a bit speechless atm actually .... Cause I can't understand the gifts I've received this week, it's a little bit hard to accept the fact that I'm loved here in Cape Town (I don't mean this in a narcist way) That my friends missed me so much and that they are happy to see me again! I was struggling with friendship in Belgium and feeling lonely, then my head started going to this place that I have no one to rely on and damn I proved myself wrong, I'm just so grateful for it!
Since the plane landed here in Cape Town I've had this home feeling... The feeling of I belong here... That is something I have missed very much! Don't get me wrong.. I love my family and how we became closer, how we became a family again! Cause that is an amazing gift to me! But I also want to finish what I started... Cause Covid got in the way of that... So I would really want to follow my dreams and passion.
Will I ever be fixed or perfect? No not at all! But that is okay, I just want to keep learning about myself and grow as a person but especially I want to stay sober.
I also showed myself that I can work from anywhere on the world and that is a positive consequence of Covid-19. My inspiration is out of control when I'm in Cape Town, So I really hope I can work and share my creativity.
So if anyone needs a website, it's only €500!
Or if you need help with your Social Media, please contact me and I would be happy to help you out!
Lot's of love
M_In_Recovery
