593 Days

Is this the end? You know when you have been friends with someone for a long time or even someone you just met and you have a real friendship and suddenly everything feels like the end of it. I am scared this is happening to me and there is nothing I can change about it. And i’m not really sure how it all happened... it happened all so fast. And I just feel sad. It feels like grief. Or is it just a break between friends? I must say that i’m not the perfect friend and sometimes I have a hard time keeping in touch with people or answering messages and I am really sorry for this. Please don’t take it personally! The last few days I have been crying a lot. And it’s over something I’m not really sure about but I’m just scared that it is over something that already happened. At the moment I don’t want to talk about it to someone other then my counsellor but I do want to share what i’m dealing with because it is okay not to be okay. I’m trying to find a job + working on a new project for all of you! It is hard but everything will be okay. I’m just taking it day by day, step by step. I will just need time to process some things and ask for clarification.

Lots of love

M_In_Recovery