Updated: Aug 31, 2020
Life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows. Life is a rollercoaster of emotions. I used to use when I was feeling sad, angry, happy, hurt, bored,...
So that where recovery comes in. A change in how we/I deal with these feelings. (feelings won’t kill you but substances will). Why am I writing this? Cause at this very moment I have a hard time dealing with the thoughts and feelings around friends. I feel rejected and alone. My head goes into: Am I not good enough to hang out with? Am I not invited because I stopped using? Am I not good enough? How did I get to this? - Sending messages to friends asking them to do something and being ignored. - Seeing social media post and you/I am not invited. - ...
Ofcourse other people are not the people I blame. I also blame myself for not staying in touch while I was away. Building a life in another country expecting my friends would remain the same in Belgium. The world is a hard place to live in but we can only do our best and know that it’s okay not to be okay as long as we ask for help and know we are not alone.
PS: I am extremely grateful for the friends and family I do have 🙏🏼
This is my struggle of today. What is yours?